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layarda
22 March 2010 @ 11:21 pm
He was a bit of a dick.  We never really clicked all that well. He was a drama queen, far too short, and not very good in bed.

Yet he's the only guy that I've "been involved with" that I kinda sorta miss.

What the hell, emotions??
 
 
layarda
22 March 2010 @ 09:51 pm
In my family history.

I don't understand why people find this at all important. Your Great-Uncle-16-times-removed was considered Czech Royalty. So what? How does this have any bearing on who YOU are? How does this change how you speak, what you wear, or what you love?

I never cared about my ancestors. Everyone can connect themselves to a famous person/circumstance. Doing so doesn't make you special. When it comes down to it, we all come from the same few individuals, 100,000 years ago.

It's this whole business of "My History" that bothers me. That individual that was Czech Royalty isn't really "your" uncle (16 times removed). He's just a guy. What he did in his life is just as relevant to me as it is to you. You don't have any "special connection" just because you are slightly more closely related to him than I am.

I think this all comes down to the fact that when people imply ownership on things that aren't  really theirs, it annoys me. For example:

MY music (when pertaining to music that one particular likes, but did not create)

Oh.. MY tv show is on.

I wish these tourists would leave MY city.

Ugh. This stuff isn't yours. It's just stuff.

Anyways. I'm done. Happy Camping everyone.
 
 
layarda
21 March 2010 @ 11:31 pm
I don't listen to music in my daily life. I just don't care. It doesn't make me happy.

So maybe thats why, when my roommate has been playing music really loud for the last 3 hours, it bothers me. The same songs, over and over again. Srsly, at the very least he could do it in his room. Music doesn't enrich my life. I like the quiet. I like sounds that at least feel organic.

Oh well.

I have a giant new bed now! I am so happy. When I said I wanted it, my intention was that it would be better for, ahem, sleepovers, than my twin was. But after the events of Saturday night... I'm really really going try and stick to my "no more boys" plan. Christ, my self-control is shitty. They say "where do you live?" and I say "really close. Come with me."

Bugger.

Anyways. I'm still really worried about my friend. Doesn't seem like anything is helping. It's funny how things like this can make you realize how much you care about someone. =(

gooood night!
 
 
layarda
10 March 2010 @ 06:28 pm
Hm. I've been feeling conflicted as of late... but I'm starting to understand what I have to do.

An opportunity came up recently to get over my ever-too-small apartment, and on to something bigger, better, and best of, with different people. I ended up not accepting as moving out would require me too...

- Get all of my own stuff packed
- Assist in apartment searching
- Talk to landlord about getting out of the lease early
- Borrow even more money from my mother
- Arrange to find roommate to replace me
- Arrange to get giant couch moved out of 3rd bedroom
- Clean up living room
- Arrange with mother what to do with the bed she's giving me, etc.
- Look for second job
- Stay sane

Long story short, I decided against. Honoring commitments is one thing that is very important to me. I said I would stay here till June, so I'll stay.

Blah. I went on a pseudo-date with this guy the other day. It took me ages to get ready. Shower, blowdry, decide what to wear, straighten hair, makeup, perfume...  He ended up being so lame. Boring. Nothing of interest to say. Bad sense of style. Not my type at all. We drank a few beers until I found an excuse and left.

The point to this story is that I've been turned off men for the time being. I'll have to find out if the planets have shifted, or something. I can feel my Saggitarius side taking over. I want to read, paint, and make music again.  Good old "sex + money" Owlex is taking the backseat. For now.

I dunno If I mentioned.. but I've also started wearing pants again. The other day I was feeling fat so I went "shopping" at the mall. I fit into a size 8 pants and I was happy. Mind you, they were old navy sizes, so they can't be trusted.

Okay. Whatever I should stop talking now.

Later!
 
 
layarda
01 March 2010 @ 09:07 pm
This week has just been a blast. I am so happy.

-I went to an Olympic Curling match (bronze medal game...China vs. Switzerland)
-We had our LOST party. Lots of laughing ensued.
-I got my brand new bicycle... She rides like a dream! <3
-Watching the mens gold medal hockey match was pretty epic. I was supposed to be bussing at Bon's, but we all just sat and stared at the TV for 45 minutes with baited breath.
-Shopping with Kayla at the mall. I got some new cute undies and some jeans. I only paid for the undies tho. =P
-Kayla's birthday bash at the Blarney Stone was so much fun. Dancing + Drinking Pints + Celtic Music = Wintimes!
- Getting all my mum's VHS tapes. I watched George of the Jungle last night. It was pretty sweeeet.
-Getting laid by two different people in a 24 hour time period.
-Cam doing the dishes!! Hell yeah!

The craziest thing about all this? This is exactly what the psychic told me would happen! He said that up untill mid-march I was going to have lots of care-free funtimes, and that I would be really happy. He also said I would find love in June... hope he's right about that too. ;)

Hmm. I think I might put on popcorn and watch another movie.

Warm and fuzzy feelings are warm and fuzzy.
 
 
 
layarda
21 February 2010 @ 09:50 pm
Ugh.

So many bitchy people were bitchy today.

Then I thought I was getting somewhere with a cute roofer boy, until I started bitching by accident.

I hate it when that happens.

Or maybe it was because I had ketchup on my dress.

Drat.
 
 
layarda
17 February 2010 @ 06:17 pm

Yay Olympics!

I think all of my bitterness about them has been completely washed away. Vancouver is getting all kinds of opportunities that it would've never gotten before. Vanoc has by no means made all the right decisions... but I'm happy.

I got to see Stephen Colbert today, I'm going to Corb Lund tonight, Sam Roberts, Dan Mangan, Our Lady Peace... all free! It kinda sucks that I haven't had an opportunity to watch any of them on TV, but its all good. I just love seeing so many happy people in my city. =)

And! I worked Friday - Sunday at Bons. Which we all know pays like a motherfucker. I am now rich. But it has to last a while.

I spent my Valentines Day by myself. Even after swearing that I wouldn't, and prowling for dates months in advance. Maybe that says something about my enticement skillz? Oh well, I had a gentlemen caller the night before, so it wasn't all bad.

On a related note, I just ate a spoonful of maple syrup. How is this related, you ask?

Because I'm sooo sweet. =)
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layarda
05 February 2010 @ 12:10 am
I've always had this strange fascination with tour guides.

They must hate thier jobs, I thought. They must only care about the money. They must loathe dealing with hearing-impaired tourists.

Then one day last summer I was talking to a friend about how I didn't have any direction. About how, even if I could afford to go to school, I'd have absolutely no idea what to take. Nothing at a school interests me. I'd fail out of everything.

So he goes: "Well what do you like doing most of all?" And I think, and I say: "This! This is what I like doing most of all! Wandering around Vancouver, sneaking about every nook and cranny, watching the boats and the planes, smelling the trees and the mountains... I like hanging out and doing nothing downtown and around town. But I guess that doesn't translate into a career very well, eh?"

Then I was thinking, well, maybe it does. Ever since then I've had this silly dream of starting my own walking tour of Vancouver. Oh it would be so fun. I think I have a unique perspective, a lot of insight to offer.

For real, what could be better than talking about something that you are passionate about all day long? I dunno, I guess lately I've been seriously considering it more and more.

I walked around downtown all day today doing more research. What would I talk about? Where would I take them? How long would it be?

I think right now, with all the things I have on my list, the tour will be 4 hours long. >.<

Anyways, does anyone want a Vancouver 2010 Hoodie? I stole one from the olympic store, thinking it would be funny and ironic, but now it just feels so wrong wearing it. =/

Maybe I should work on becoming a model citizens before I start sending people on a marathon around our city, eh?
 
 
layarda
03 February 2010 @ 09:16 pm
I'm in a weird mood.

I have this epically-mediocre plan to go out tonight, find someone to make out with, and steal their money. The sad part? I'll probably get too cold and give up after an hour. If that.

I showed Katie the perfume I got the other day. She didn't believe that I actually bought it. "You stole it, didn't you?" > "No! I actually spent the $94 on it." > "Yeah right." > "Really!"

Maybe it should bother me that people assume I am dishonest. It doesn't.

Haha, I finally caved and joined formspring. I am terrible with this peer pressure stuff.

I cleaned the whole house today. I think I was just really peeved because I had to sort the recycling at midnight when all I wanted to was go to bed. Blah. Whatever. Forgive and forget.
 
 
layarda
30 January 2010 @ 06:24 pm
I think they renovated Metrotown mall maybe 6 years ago now. Yet whenever I go in there it still feels like walking into a spaceship. I wonder how much longer before it is outdated once again.

Never underestimate the powers of retail therapy. Well, in my case, half legit-shopping, half stealth-shopping. I did actually buy some pants today, they were only $10, so no biggie there. And I bought some Chanel perfume. I've always wanted some Chanel perfume.

I did end up stealing some makeup and a stuffed mascot from the Olympic Superstore downtown. Just to prove that its not nearly as hard as it looks.

I dunno, the alone time was nice. I'd been feeling lousy lately, due to various factors. And my stomachs been acting up again because of it. It never quite healed properly after last September. =/

Downer is officially gone. Chris got here a couple of days ago. I don't DISLIKE him, he's just not really my kind of people. Cam likes him tho. It figures.

Mmm I guess I better clean up. As usual.. there is alcohol bottles and dishes everywhere.